I had lost my magic yet I just found it it.

beautiful video, beautiful remix

Do you lose your magic when you get to the age of 18? for the longest time I made myself believe that. But of course can not be true, it shall not be true. Though I am 18 I still dream of becoming a girl knight and fighting in a grand battle, I still wish to be mermaid, and would always love to go to never land and become a lost girl. I used to wander around in my grandmother's back yard, she and her husband own acres and acres of land. I would wander around pretending to be in Narnia or in a magical forest, its a shame that I now feel shame for doing that at the age I am now. I hate that I am 18. I look like I am 16 sometimes.

Food below is from when I went to Shogun with some friends. I was a fun interesting night.

I dont understand why I love the rain so much. Why every time it clouds up I am happy, but when it is sunny I hate it. Just the other night it was pretty stormy though I had to go out in it, I had to stand in the rain, even though it was thundering and lighting. I stood there on my driveway just looking up to the sky watching the lighting and get drenched with cold rain. It felt amazing, I felt so a live and actually felt like living. The wind began to pick swaying the trees and picking up debree, It was all swirling around me. It was just so surreal. I have a theory as to why I like the rain so much. I feel its the earths way of cleansing itself from pulltion and cooling its pain from dying.